Time and Space

The last time I saw the sunrise was just too long ago

And here I am, sleepless staring out the window

Do you know how much it kills me to stare into your eyes

And watch them break into a million pieces?

I want to mend your broken heart with mine, but it's no use

This time and space will never come between me and you

I'm a safe place to hide in this late November twilight

So come on now, this time let's stay out all night

The last time I heard my name was just too long ago
But here we are, safely holding on to lessons learned
Did you know I held on to every moment you kept me breathing
Your laughter held together my million pieces

After train wrecks and harsh blows and wasted time
There were moments you were the only thing keeping me alive

So now I'll stand by you with no witness but these city lights
Let's throw our wishes, reflected below us and say it'll be all right

White

White, white

In these days
There are words that shake my soul to its core
All these ways
To earn my place at the foot of a living man's grave
And yet all so unattainable
And every closed eye keeps me looking out for my own
Every foul battle wound of mine
In such stark contrast with this white, white faith

I remember the day
I remember the day
I remember the day I ran from you

In my time
So few years, but close between them my blood laced
Every line
To tell of bitter shame I never asked to know
You were so unattainable
So every sorrow I knew became my first love
Every self-inflicted wound of mine
In such stark contrast with your white, white forgiveness

I remember the day

I remember the day

I remember the day I ran from you

For every shadow over me

And every thorn I pushed you through

For every time I swore

I'd never fall in love with you

For every hate I ever harbored

For every time I looked away

You stayed

I remember the day
I remember the day
I remember the day I ran to you

Scenarios

Scenarios

Verse 1:
I don't know what to make of this
Of fleeting heartache and constant double-takes
I don't know what to make of this
Everything is right, but I just feel wrong

Chorus:

But what if I'm wrong

Or what if you stray

What if I'm honestly not okay

What if I don't know

What if I never will

What if I'm just honestly not okay

Verse 2:
I barely can breathe on my own
So hardly can I choose these steps so carefully
I barely know my own soul
Everything is wrong, but I'm trying to be so right

Bridge:
All these scenarios
Guess that's the way it goes
I just want to be, want to be, I want to believe in you
All these scenarios
Guess that's the way it goes when I just don't know

Struggling to stay in the light of your darting eyes
She walks a fine line
Between a china doll and a scarecrow

Fighting to be your queen, she wants a knight to take her hand
She fights to reach out
Between the hopeless grasps and breathless words, she cries

Nothing should have come in between, she dared to think
They swore that love was all it took, but they were wrong
Do something, fight a battle, do it for me, she dared to scream
But in the end she loses her fearless zeal to a timid soul

She's got an eye for lost causes and unbroken ground
But maybe she's naive
Because she's the lost cause today

This china doll, she's broken in and she never should have been
This china doll, she never knew what she did
This china doll, she knows that someday she'll be whole again

I was just a stupid girl, and a stupid one at that
And you were just the one I went after because of it

You're no fool, baby, it was just me
Me being me, myself, and
I didn't know better, didn't know better,
Oh, yes, I did

I broke my own rules to follow some other game
To play this game with you
I broke my own heart to follow some other shameful, plagiarized story
Where the best boy chances to claim the lowest girl
But you'd never claim me

And I broke down hearts into particles that dissolved into thin air
Just to see if you'd take your chances, let your guard down and fall for me
To see if you'd say I was beautiful with my covered skin and softer tone
My naive spirit and my eager heart
And you said you wanted the skin, the touch, the attention of someone else
Everyone else
Everyone that did all the wrong things, and each one you've turned into a notch into your
Into your
Into my mind
Into your eyes

You were too busy with some other fantasy of sex and drugs and rock and roll
Wrapped in your rock chick girl and your rock god world
But I guess I'm just an acoustic kind of girl

metastasized.

Funny how I'm strung along
'Cause I'm just the opposite of strong
Funny how nobody saw
When I cried out so loud and long

Funny how you swore you'd be there and then you weren't
Funny how I got vulnerable and then got burned
Funny how this support system was the lie I bought

The hands on the clock indicated the darkness
And that's when I lifted arms for your aid
I hope you regret letting me think you're around

And now I remember why I always thought friendship wasn't worth it
Because it isn't


I'm pulled apart, a fibrous existence
With strings and cloth strewn all around
Behold my pieces

It's not just you this is killing
It's metastasized to my essence

You Don't Belong Here

You don't belong here, Darling
Here inside my head
You should be gone now, Darling
I've long since forsaken your wiles

Began in a day
I should have, would have known
It began in a nighttime glance
Lights dimmed, across the room, I should have known

Began with a word
I fought back, should have known
It began in the center of your eye
Lights dimmed, standing by you, you should have known

You should have known
Leave me alone
I should have known